Devious Journal Entry

I'm so sick of this

I am SO FUCKING SICK of this

Every fucking time I'm happy, something ALWAYS fucking comes and takes it away

Both online and in real life I fucking feel like I have nobody. I feel like the few people I DO have are going to get driven away by how annoying and angsty I am. It's happened before, and it'll most likely happen again. And there's not a god damn thing I can fucking do about it. Already I'm afraid to talk to some of my best friends because of this very reason

To make matters worse, my parents, who already cause me a large majority of my misery and suffering, have gotten especially worse lately, driving me even further up the wall and closer to suicide. On top of that I can fucking feel myself slipping into insanity and if I tell anyone about it they'll just fucking tell me to get over it

All I want to do anymore is fucking bang my head against the wall and pass out. Maybe then, just fucking maybe I'll get a fucking concussion and die. I'll stop suffering and a lot of people would be a lot happier with me out of their lives

I'm just done
I'm so fucking done
brb working on my will